free sketching... didn't start out with any kind of direction...

I would have uploaded two fliers I did for a client of mine... but this is alright too. lol

Feer is reborn in vectors? maybe.

Scene 2 from my new practice play, The Great Break... It's a little experimental... and has a typo or two. lol.

small 3D house-type object designed out of vectors.

my 3rd installment of my 365 things to create.

I recently found a new program that allows me to do really clean lines... I just need to learn it a little better.

Heartless

This is my second creation for my 365 days of creation.

I know it doesn't look like much... but it's a quick sketch of a bio-mechanical design for a character of mine.

I wanted the character's species to be ridiculously difficult to kill without making them jedi-wolverine-vampire-godmoders.

So I came up the idea of nano-muscular vein walls which react to electric stimulus coming from attached dynamo cells... making the heart completely obsolete. The veins move the blood, rather than needing a central pump system.

This doesn't make them un-killable, but it does take away the single most used kill-spot.

It may not seem like much, but every new idea I come up with for this character's species affects the entire universe we're creating.

Why are we here?

We are here for Feer...

Feer is a new concept that I've been developing for a long, long, long time. It first came to 'life' as a creature. A character that was not only very real to me as a child, but was my honest-to-all things, hand-to-whatever-deity-you-choose bogeyman. At least that's the only way I can describe it. It was eight feet tall, translucent green, with long pointed teeth and eyes that would illuminate and emit a white wispy energy that looked like smoke.

This creature wouldn't really act like a normal bogeyman. It would try to scare me. More in an empowering way than vindictive as you would usually expect.

To understand this, you'd have to know more about my childhood.

I am not going to live very long. I was presented with this at a young age... and that frightened me. This figment would help me see what a fear really was; something to overcome. And for that, I gave it it's first name... FEAR.

As I grew, this creature became more a part of me, lingering in my mind rather than actually manifesting in front of me (I chalk that up to the loss of my rampant childhood thought processes.) I began to create a story around it, I let its personality shine through (which isn't always the most politically correct option.)

I met a very interesting person in High School. He explained that he also had a creature like mine, only his was a little darker and a little less restrained. Something told me to combine them... eventually we had a vast array of stories and characters, all connected to this strange amalgamation of our unrestrained sides.

It created a universe and the more I thought about it, the more I tried to find what this creature really was. I took an interest in psychology and tried to pinpoint which part of myself this thing could be. I figured out what a fear really is...

General acceptance is that a fear is something that we don't understand but that isn't really a perfect definition. Others say that it's a reaction to a perceived threat and while that is very true, there's something deeper.

What is a threat? A threat is a dangerous situation outside of our control. A dangerous situation in our control is a job... a challenge.

So, I came to the conclusion that fear and anxiety is our immediate response to react to things we can't control, either at the present or, through a perceived weakness, ever.

And I realized that my creature was something I couldn't control, showing me that it's ok to accept what I can't control... In essence, to me, this FEAR simply wanted me to be free...

Its at that moment that I gave it a new name... an anagram of what it was trying to give me... I called it FEER.

It became my message and the vessel with which I would spread it.

It's not always happy, and most of the time it's dark and twisted as hell... but, like it or not,

Feer is Spreading

-- Aaron